this is shit lah..
i hate myself for being so fickle.

appeal, appeal not?
i wish smone can help mke my mind up
for me.

the worse thing's tht i realise i dnt
have much passion for ANYTHING.
damn yes nothing at all.

ppl like me shldnt evn lived.
living without an aim/passion.
why the hell my parents gave birth
to me sixteen yrs ago?

the new sch life's a big worry too.
i take million yrs to adapt to a
new environment.
adapting was nvr easy for me.

2005 has been a fcuk so far.
NOTHING ever goes right for me!
whn i saw the JAE results ytd,
thr wasnt a YAY or a FCUK,
was jst a smile.
A DRY SMILE.
had expected it anw.

lets hope sth comes along to
mke this whole situation btr.

i rly admire myself for being so
optimistic all this time :/